Fuck it! Such a boring day.

Well, supposed to meet him today but guess wad?! We`re not meeting anymore. Ha-de-ha-ha! Wads his reason? He said this to me when i asked if he was still meeting me ' So late alrdy you still wanna meet meh?' LOLS! It was 4+ 5+ only. Whenever i meet you on weekdays, wad time do i meet you? 7+ 8+.. Now 4+ 5+ you come and say late? Wanna stay on with your brothers den say.. No need beat around the bush ok?

Now we quarrel like fucking everyday and if it continues.. ITS OVER! I really cant stand it any longer. Fucking CB. He wanna go paikia all the way den go.. I also cannot do anything anyways. I am in NO FUCKING POSITION TO FUCKING ASK HIM TO DO ANYTHING BECAUSE HE DOESNT FUCKING TREAT ME AS HIS GF. IM JUST A FUCKING SPARE OF HIS. FUCK MY LIFE AND FUCK ME PPLE. I FUCKING HATE TO FUCKING FEEL THIS WAY. NOT I WANNA HATE HIS FRIENDS OR WAD BUT WHY ARENT THEY HELPING AT ALL? WANNA SEE US BREAK THAN HAPPY IS IT? OR MAYBE THEY DID HELP JUST THAT MARCUS FOO DOESNT WANNA CALL ME.. FINE IT THAT IS SO. IM FINE IF HE WANNA SEE THIS DAMN PATHETIC R/S OF OURS GOING DOWN THE FUCKING CB DRAIN. MY HEART IS FUCKING IN A MESS AND IT IS FUCKING PAIN. I FEEL LIKE CRYING BUT WHATS THE FUCKING USE WHEN HE DOESNT FUCKING CARE? EVER SINCE HE LEFT TECK WHYE AND JOINED THE DUNNO WHERE, HE FUCKING NEGLECT ME..ALL HE KNOW IS PAIKIA PAIKIA PAIKIA. WHATS SO GREAT BEING A FUCKING PAIKIA?! WANNA BE PAIKIA ALL THE WAY THAN DONT HAVE A GF BECAUSE I TELL YOU..NO GIRL WANTS HER FUCKING BF TO NEGLECT HER. I REALLY CANT STAND IT ANY LONGER..IM FUCKING GOING TO BREAK DOWN ALREADY YET HE DOESNT CARE..ALL MY CRYING AND NAGGING IS JUST KAOPEI KAOBU. IF YOU DUN WAN ME TO CARE ANYMORE I WONT. JUST DONT REGRET. FUCKING CBBBBBBB! FUCK THIS FUCKING WORLD. IM SO FUCKING IN PAIN AND NO FUCKING FUCKED UP PERSON CARES.. NOT EVEN THE FUCKING PERSON I LOVE. HE ONLY KNOWS HOW TO CAUSE THE PAIN AND LEAVE ME ALL ALONE....... FUCKKKK LAHHHHH. PCB. I HATE MYSELF NOW AND I HATE MY FUCKING LOVE LIFE CAUSE IT FUCKING SUCKS. I AM FUCKING CRYING LIKE A CRAZY FUCKED UP BITCH WAITING FOR HIM TO CALL ME BUT YET HE IS OVER THERE ENJOYING HIS FUCKING SELF. WHY CANT YOU JUST SPARE A FUCKING THOUGHT FOR ME MARCUS FOO? WHY WHY WHY? YOU WAN US TO BE IN THIS STATE OR EVEN BE OVER DEN YOU HAPPY IS IT? WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS HURT ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN.. CANT YOU SEE ALL THE FUCKING SCARS YOU HAVE FUCKING LEFT IN MY HEART? WHY CANT YOU EVER MAKE ME HAPPY FOR ONCE? YOU KNOW ITS DAMN EASY TO MAKE ME HAPPY BUT YET YOU NEVER DO ANYTHING TO MAKE ME HAPPY. ALL YOU DO IS FUCKING HURT ME REPEATEDLY..CANT YOU SEE ALL THE HURTS AND TIREDNESS IN MY EYES WHEN I LOOK AT YOU? CANT YOU SEE HOW MUCH HURT YOU HAVE CAUSED ME? WHY DO YOU ALWAYS PUSH ME TO KENNY WHEN I FUCKING DO NOT HAVE ANYTHING OR ANY FEELINGS FOR HIM. DO YOU DETEST ME SO MUCH TO THE EXTENT THAT SEEING ME IN PAIN MAKES YOU HAPPY? WHY CANT I FUCKING MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU JUST FOR ONE FUCKING TIME? YOU HAVE REALLY FUCKING HURT ME SO DEEP THIS TIME AND I REALLY CANT TAKE THE FUCKING PAIN. WHEN YOU MEET ME..ALL YOU EVER THINK IS FUCK FUCK FUCK.. HAVE YOU EVER MET ME JUST BECAUSE YOU WANNA SEE ME? CANT YOU SEE IM REALLY PUTTING IN SO MUCH INTO THIS R/S THAT IM SO FUCKING TIRED? IS IT BECAUSE I WANNA MEET YOU SO MUCH THAT YOU THINK I CANT LIVE W/O YOU? PLS STOP HURTING ME BECAUSE MY HEART CANT TAKE IT ANY LONGER. I WANT THE OLD YOU BACK. I DUWAN MY LOVED ONE TO BE A FUCKING BAD BOY..I DUWAN YOU TO GET INTO ANY FUCKING TROUBLE WITH THE LAW..YOU NEED I FUCKING NEED YOU AND PLS DONT TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT PLS..I KNOW IM NOT PRETTY OR CUTE NOR DO I HAVE A FABULOUS FIGURE..I AM NOT FIT FOR YOU I KNOW BUT I REALLY FUCKING LOVE YOU WITH MY WHOLE FUCKING HEART. IF DIGGING OUT MY HEART IS THE ONLY WAY TO SHOW YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU..I WOULD. I REALLY MISS THE OLD YOU..WHERE DID IT GO? PLS COME BACK..I REALLY MISS THE OLD YOU..I REALLY DO..hais.. ( ::"-":: )

I guess im really not suited to be in love.